This week was a though one because of the stress of what happen Monday. I was constantly afraid that my baby’s heart beat will drop again and I could not know. So every time I felt he didn’t moved for a long time I would stress.
I went Thursday to another ultrasound with the doctor that find the problem on Monday, and he checked for his heart beat again and for the right brain activity, I guess. He went with the ultrasound on his head and some red and blue lights appeared and played on the screen. He didn’t seem concerned, but said he doesn’t think that was the vena cava my ob explained, but didn’t know what to say. So that got me thinking and panicking again. Not only I didn’t had an explanation anymore, but now I didn’t know what NOT to do for that to ever happen again.
My husband’s departure that day din’t helped much. I was having panic attacks even if I saw his heart beat earlier and saw everything was alright, I was afraid that when I’ll be alone and no one beside me to comfort and make me think of something else, I will loose it. I had to buy a hypertension meter with a stethoscope so that I could try and hear his heart beat when my mom isn’t around to check it by ear, but I barely heard anything.
Yesterday and today was somehow better, because I felt him very active and was so glad every time he kicked my bladder because I was proud he was showing his strength and showing me that he was a fighter.
My little boy, Eric Rafael, will be just fine, and I’m counting my weeks till my C-section and is more relaxing to see how fast the time is passing and how I will miss my little boy’s movement in my belly. Six weeks to go, but four more till it will be safe for him to go out. Still I’m keeping my fingers crossed so that he’ll reach 39 weeks.
Also this week, I was in the mood to cook complicated stuff, maybe to take my mind of my stress. And I made:
Vegetables dough rolls, with beans, rice, corn, onions, olives, muffins with chocolate chips and vegetables cream soup.
And eggplant Slippers with minced meat, tomato sauce and vegetables, with melted cheese and bacon on top and Tzatziki. I made Romanian pancakes later on, which are way thinner filled with jam.
Sorry girls for making you crave for those in the picture, but my latest craving is MAKING food. Hoping for the next days to make some gyros with homemade pita and everything.
Symptoms: In the mood to cook, the usual trips to the bathroom, although earlier this day I had an excess of coughing and when I stood up to cough better I peed a little, so I will have to be afraid of coughing too, not only sneezing from now on. I also felt very tired and some anxiety, hoped it’ll pass.
Baby weight: 1918 grams (ours measured 1965 grams)
Baby head to toe: 43.7 cm
Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight nineteenth week: 72.5 kg (I don’t have an electric scale anymore and the one that my mom has is a little bit off, but it’ll have to do till I give birth, can’t be off by too much)
Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust nineteenth week: 98 cm
Waist before: 67 cm
Waist nineteenth week: 95 cm
Hips before: 92 cm
Hips nineteenth week: 97 cm
Butt before: 95 cm
Butt nineteenth week: 105 cm
Bump before: 77 cm
Bump nineteenth week: 105 cm