Jul 21, 2013 - Health    4 Comments

Baby is Here

Eric Rafael2Eric Rafael, born July 2nd, 2013 at 35 weeks and 2 days at 9:08 PM. We were on or way to our godmother with some cookies freshly baked and he put his legs through my membranes and broke my water in the middle of the street at around 7 PM. I made a small pool under me like you see in the movies. He run out of space apparently. Luckily we were close to our destination and our sweet godmother picked us up.

We tried to stay positive on our way to the hospital, which took us less than we expected. Called my doctor and she said she’ll come after she hears the results of my monitoring. I arrived there and told the receptionist my water broke, she smiled and sent me to the on call doctor. The nurse smiled at me too and then asked what week am I in. When she heard 35 her smile disappeared. She put an IV on to take some blood and put the cardiotocogram monitor on my belly.

The on call doctor came in and checked my cervix, I suppose. She then called my doctor and said she could feel his feet already. Some contraction started and suddenly the relaxed state I was in disappeared and I started shaking like I was cold. This memories are very blurry. I know my husband and mother started filling some paperwork, which I found later they didn’t had time to finish and they only signed as I was on my way to the operating room. The room was filled with girls, nurses, anesthesiologist and my doctor, who were all chatting and complementing my hair and asking me questions, completely equipped and ready to go. They explained some paper work I had to sign but wasn’t time for me to read them, and apologized for the unusual situation.

I didn’t think for a second that I was an emergency. Everybody kept smiling and keeping calm, but doing things very fast, I realize this just now. I tried my best to keep myself from shaking while they were putting a needle through my back, but I couldn’t stay still when the needle punctured my back because I was focusing on not shaking.

A nurse asked why I was shaking and I said because of fear, I guess. I didn’t even know, and is still a mystery. I started feeling what they were doing, but no pain of course. I heard my doctor say his umbilical cord is twice around his neck, so I was right about that. Baby wanted to turn with his head down but couldn’t because he was tied to the umbilical cord and when he tried his heart rate went down. I read somewhere that a mothers instinct is more powerful than any tests mechanism in the world. They couldn’t see his umbilical cord around his neck at the ultrasound, but I knew it was there.

They took him out and I didn’t hear him cry and got scared. But my doctors face appeared after the sheet and told me baby was fine. Soon after that I heard him cry and I thought he sounded like a kitten. They brought him to my face and let me kiss him and tears run on my face because that was the happiest I felt in my entire life. He had the softest skin I ever touched and I couldn’t say just then if he looked like my husband, but I know the staff in the operating room was sad he didn’t had curly hair. For me he just looked like a baby. Maybe I was more happy to know he was safe and healthy, but I can’t say he is beautiful. He simply is perfect! He has all his fingers, toes, normal ears, nose, eyes and mouth, and that is just what I wished for, a normal looking but healthy boy.

Eric Rafael

He weighted 2,530 kg and measured 45 cm. He scored 9 and he didn’t need an oxygen mask. He tried his best, this little guy, but couldn’t stay there any longer. He is now 2 weeks old and gaining weight fast. He had some jaundice and we had to stay 3 more days in the hospital because he was suspected of having an infection, and was put on antibiotics.

He spent a lot of the day time in my room, with me and my husband. Nurses came in and explained how to change his dipper, how to feed him, how to give him a bath and clean his navel, how to burp him. And every question we had got answered.

My recovery was a little slower than they expected. I was in so much pain, when they thought I was ready to get up and walk to the bathroom they couldn’t be more wrong, because I fainted. I usually faint when I feel too much pain and the menstrual cramping I had was the worst I had experienced because it didn’t go away, even with all the epidural shots they gave me. But after I called the nurse in charge more than 5 times over night she gave up and put me on inflammatory IV. After that I didn’t need anything for more than 10 hours, and I finally could get out of bed and use the bathroom, and I’m not going to tell you what I had to do the previous night for that.

I am still scared of him. I somehow know what he needs and I try to breastfeed him as much as I can but he needs supplements too because I can’t produce as much as he wants. I fear every minute for him and I wish he could tell me he is fine once in a while. This probably gave the panic attacks I have sometime. They come and go, but don’t last too long as I try to focus on other stuff and not the fear I’m feeling, but I feel week because of them, and I want to be strong for my baby.

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I love him with all my heart. I loved him since he was in my belly, and when I saw his little face it felt odd, it felt like I knew him for so long and his face was so familiar, I just knew he was mine and I had no doubt about how much I will love that little wrinkled face of his forever.

Jun 30, 2013 - Feelings    No Comments

Thirty Five Weeks Pregnant

Thirty Five Weeks Pregnant

The week started very bad. As in I woke up and baby was in a weird angle and very tensed in my belly. My mom was home and made her listen to his heart beat. She tried and listen and end up counting 70 beats per minute. The belly relaxed after I walked a bit and stayed bent so he’ll have more room. I gave my doctor an e-mail and she answered very fast, saying she understands my concerns and that I should go to the hospital to be motorized even for a few days if necessary.

I called the doctor she referred me too and she said the same. So Monday I went to the hospital for a Cardiotocogram, baby did his low heart beat again, the doctor there was not concerned saying it might be again that the baby moved and the machine lost his heart beat for a few seconds. But this time she took me in for an ultrasound to see if the umbilical chord was functioning properly, and the flow was very good.

Tuesday my husband got here because he didn’t want to leave me alone anymore, in case anything went wrong with baby again. He had lots to do home and didn’t finish all of them, but didn’t want to stay far away from us any longer.

Anyway, Wednesday, I went to the doctor that has to see me now that mine is on vacation, and looked at EVERY PIECE OF TEST since I got pregnant. I got another CTG and baby behaved this time. Assured me that whatever is wrong with baby is not harming him, and he will not have long term damages. She couldn’t  say 100% percent that I will have a healthy baby, because she was not God, her words, but she knows cases with babies born with the umbilical cord around their neck even two times and they are fine and healthy.

So everything looks fine. We’ll keep monitoring him at least once a week, and we hope he will be fine. Baby still didn’t turn with his head down, so I don’t know if he will. It’s uncomfortable, but I will have a C-section because of my eye condition anyway, so I guess he can stay however he wants.

Symptoms: The swollen feet disappeared at the middle of the week, I can’t say if I did something different or what is the reason for that but I’m glad. Some headaches and backaches because of my sleeping position, the usual heartburn and peeing, but other than that I’m fine.

New measurements:

Baby weight: 2383 grams (ours measured 1965 grams at 32 weeks)
Baby head to toe: 46.2 cm

Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight nineteenth week: 74 kg (my moms scale shows a different weight every time I try to measure myself)

Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust nineteenth week: 99 cm

Waist before: 67 cm
Waist nineteenth week: 97 cm

Hips before: 92 cm
Hips nineteenth week: 99 cm

Butt before: 95 cm
Butt nineteenth week: 106 cm

Bump before: 77 cm
Bump nineteenth week: 106 cm

Jun 23, 2013 - Feelings    No Comments

Thirty Four Weeks Pregnant

Thirty Four Weeks Pregnant

This week I received baby stuff from amazon.co.uk. Didn’t know that they had different types of plugs, so I had to buy some adapters. But they were so cool, I had to test them. We got: a sterilizer, bottle warmer, baby monitor, wipes, diapers, bottles and grooming kit, and I sterilized everything. It was so much fun. I showed my husband everything via iPhone and he will probably be more excited when he sees everything. Most of the things are from Avent, the baby monitor is from Motorola, grooming kit from Tommee Tippee and wipes and diapers Pampers Sensitive.

Our godmother gave us the car seat and breast pump, and the bed and changing mattress will come next week. Yey!

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I got my results for SGB and I don’t have any, just some yeast infection I have to treat, but is not unusual for pregnant women to have this.

This was the good side of the week.

The bad side is that I had to go to a Cardiotocogram test on Friday and all was well, I was sitting on my back but high enough with pillows under my back and after 15 minutes the baby’s heartbeat started to slow down, again.

I went with my mom this time and told her to call for someone and then I tried to turn on my right a little, because the machine was on that side but baby still was not ok. Someone came asked if I moved, I said no, but the belly was very tensed and the baby still in an awkward position and the heart rate didn’t go up still. So they put me on my left side and the heart rate started to grow beat by beat. So from 76, the number my mom read the last time, it slowly started to go up as he re-positioned in my belly.

The doctor on guard came and look at the results, told me it was because of the machine that didn’t get the direct contact with baby’s heart and that is why it dropped. Then took that result and said I should stay another 20 minutes to see if everything was alright if I’m on my left side. And it was till the end, but the explanation didn’t felt right. More because the belly tensed like the first time the heart beat dropped, and the explanation was odd.

So I wrote an e-mail to my doctor, as she requested, took some photos of the tests and she promptly responded in like 30 minutes even though it was Saturday morning, very early in the morning. She said it was because I was on my back again, and should avoid that, but nothing else I can do to avoid that because that is the only reason. I asked her if I could repeat the Cardiotocogram earlier than 8th of July and she said it was a good idea to do them more often.

So next Friday I’m gonna go again for a test. I’m gonna stay on my left side from the beginning and hope he’ll be fine the entire time. It gets scary to know your little one is not well and can’t do anything about that to help him, or at least hold him in your arms till the bad feeling is no more, which I don’t want to do very soon. I mean I wanna hold him, but not for another 5 weeks.

Symptoms: This week, starting with Monday, my feet swollen. They look like Fred Flintstone’s feet and they hurt if I standing too long, or walking too much. But lately, standing and walking even for a bit is such a pain. I can’t seem to get any comfort from putting them up, cuz I have to stay on my side and it is not a comfortable position, and even if I stay sited and put them up, they start getting sore and numb. What it feels like heaven and so relaxing is a putting my feet in not too cold water. I don’t know if it’s recommended, but at least the pain goes away for that time only. When I take them off, or start walking, they still hurt.

Some more backaches probably because of sleeping positions, headaches, small bladder and heartburn. But nothing that is as bad as the swollen feet.

New measurements:

Baby weight: 2146 grams (ours measured 1965 grams at 32 weeks)
Baby head to toe: 45 cm

Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight nineteenth week: 74.5 kg (my moms scale shows a different weight every time I try to measure myself)

Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust nineteenth week: 99 cm

Waist before: 67 cm
Waist nineteenth week: 97 cm

Hips before: 92 cm
Hips nineteenth week: 99 cm

Butt before: 95 cm
Butt nineteenth week: 107 cm

Bump before: 77 cm
Bump nineteenth week: 107 cm

Jun 16, 2013 - Feelings    No Comments

Thirty Three Weeks Pregnant

Thirty Three Weeks Pregnant

This week was a though one because of the stress of what happen Monday. I was constantly afraid that my baby’s heart beat will drop again and I could not know. So every time I felt he didn’t moved for a long time I would stress.

I went Thursday to another ultrasound with the doctor that find the problem on Monday, and he checked for his heart beat again and for the right brain activity, I guess. He went with the ultrasound on his head and some red and blue lights appeared and played on the screen. He didn’t seem concerned, but said he doesn’t think that was the vena cava my ob explained, but didn’t know what to say. So that got me thinking and panicking again.  Not only I didn’t had an explanation anymore, but now I didn’t know what NOT to do for that to ever happen again.

My husband’s departure that day din’t helped much. I was having panic attacks even if I saw his heart beat earlier and saw everything was alright, I was afraid that when I’ll be alone and no one beside me to comfort and make me think of something else, I will loose it. I had to buy a hypertension meter with a stethoscope so  that I could try and hear his heart beat when my mom isn’t around to check it by ear, but I barely heard anything.

Yesterday and today was somehow better, because I felt him very active and was so glad every time he kicked my bladder because I was proud he was showing his strength and showing me that he was a fighter.

My little boy, Eric Rafael, will be just fine, and I’m counting my weeks till my C-section and is more relaxing to see how fast the time is passing and how I will miss my little boy’s movement in my belly. Six weeks to go, but four more till it will be safe for him to go out. Still I’m keeping my fingers crossed so that he’ll reach 39 weeks.

Also this week, I was in the mood to cook complicated stuff, maybe to take my mind of my stress. And I made:

Vegetables dough rolls, with beans, rice, corn, onions, olives, muffins with chocolate chips and vegetables cream soup.

Vegetables cream soup

 

 

And eggplant Slippers with minced meat, tomato sauce and vegetables, with melted cheese and bacon on top and Tzatziki. I made Romanian pancakes later on, which are way thinner filled with jam.

 

Sloippers with tzatziki

Sorry girls for making you crave for those in the picture, but my latest craving is MAKING food. Hoping for the next days to make some gyros with homemade pita and everything.

Symptoms: In the mood to cook, the usual trips to the bathroom, although earlier this day I had an excess of coughing and when I stood up to cough better I peed a little, so I will have to be afraid of coughing too, not only sneezing from now on. I also felt very tired and some anxiety, hoped it’ll pass.

New measurements:

Baby weight: 1918 grams (ours measured 1965 grams)
Baby head to toe: 43.7 cm

Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight nineteenth week: 72.5 kg (I don’t have an electric scale anymore and the one that my mom has is a little bit off, but it’ll have to do till I give birth, can’t be off by too much)

Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust nineteenth week: 98 cm

Waist before: 67 cm
Waist nineteenth week: 95 cm

Hips before: 92 cm
Hips nineteenth week: 97 cm

Butt before: 95 cm
Butt nineteenth week: 105 cm

Bump before: 77 cm
Bump nineteenth week: 105 cm

Jun 14, 2013 - General    No Comments

Deciding On a Name

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This process took us very long. Since I got pregnant I asked my husband to think of a name. He didn’t want to because he said he wanted to know what it is first so that it will be easy just to think of boys names and argue just on those than have to argue on girls names too.

I agreed with him because we had different things in mind. He liked more local names and I liked more international names. So we definitely were going to argue. The first name was easy to pick. He took a list to explain to some friends why aren’t we deciding now for names and he found one that he liked and I liked it too because was not an usual name for our country. We didn’t had in mind then that we will keep that name, but as the time passed and as we only agreed on one, we kind of get used to it and kept it for his first name.

It was a name that suited both of us, he wanted a short name that is hard to have a nickname, and I wanted something that didn’t sound too Romanian. One of the reasons I didn’t want a regular name is because the babies I know, and the little kids I heard about don’t have usual Romanian names anymore and to give my baby a name like that would not be unique like many would think, it would be old, like: “Oh, my fathers name is ….”

So after choosing the first name, we both agreed he has to have two. One of the reasons was because if he gets older and doesn’t like his first name, he can choose the other to introduce himself.

So a few weeks back we took a list with like 500 names on it, more Romanian names than others but some of them looked ok. We both put our likes on a piece of paper, without talking with each other and seeing each other’s names. When we finished the lists we compared results. Few of the names were on both lists, so we choose those, and some that at a second view looked fine to both of us.

Long story short, after giving them grades we remained with only 3 names, and agreed to let just the first and second place for debate. We said we will think in the next days about the two names and see which ones sticks, like the first name did. And after a week or so, it worked and we choose a name that none of us got issues with.

But, as you know, after what happen on Monday, we felt we needed something to protect our little guy from harm. We have a tradition that one of the names should be a Saint’s name, but we didn’t liked any of the names we looked at. If you remember I said we had another name a few weeks back that we liked and the coincidence happen that the name we left behind was a Saint’s name, more of an angel really, but had something that we were looking for protection.

So this is the story about choosing names, it’s not easy, it’s not something you should do lightly, is hard because your baby will be stuck with it his whole life.

The other name we had for his middle name, was Oliver, but we had to change it as it wasn’t something biblical.

So his name is…… (drums beat in background)
…………
Name me what
…………

 

Eric Rafael (Ciabai)

P.S.: Rafael is the Angel of health. It means “God is the healer of soul, mind and body.”

Jun 10, 2013 - Feelings, Health, Problems    2 Comments

Thirty Two Weeks Pregnant

Thirty Two Weeks Pregnant

Today I had my third trimester ultrasound appointment and everything looked fine from the waiting room, at least. Until we got in the doctors office. I laid down and baby made a big, huge, like never before, lump that felt very very tight inside and outside and pushing on my right side almost to the back with his head. The doctor measured his head, as he always does, and told his assistant the numbers, and it seemed he was not concerned about the lump. Then we, me and my husband, and the doctor of course, could see his little heart on the screen which seemed, even for some inexperienced parents to be, very slow. He then tried to move the baby with his Doppler device, tapping on top of my belly with it.

My husband took my hand in his and hold it tight, we could see that the baby situation didn’t change and we were afraid. I kept saying to myself that he was ok, because in the waiting room he was moving and kicking like he always does. I was trying to remember where are all my medical papers and stuff for the hospital. The doctor then asked who was my ob and they immediately called her in putting an accent on emergency.

Until my ob came, the doctor in charge said: “Please don’t be scared, I have to push on your belly for the baby’s sake.” And he started to push the big lump inside with force a few times, my belly hurt, but I didn’t care and he tried again with the Doppler. Then my ob came in and he told her that the baby’s heart beat is 56 beats per minute for about 5 minutes and she should take me and see if anything changes or if not she should think of an emergency C-section right away. The baby’s heart rate should be between 110 and 160, so you get the concern, right?

In my head I was feeling more secure with my ob there and I was thinking that is good that I have the contract I signed with the hospital for giving birth with me, and if the emergency C-section is included in it. I was trying to think positive and believe that my baby will be fine, once he was out, but if he could not change position really soon my belly would not be safe for him anymore.

Staying positive so that I would not scare my husband, because I was thinking of him and his blood pressure problems too, and stay cool and collected so that I could take the right decision if I had to make any. All this time I could feel in my heart everything was going to be fine, and baby just has a bad day, which proved a little later on.

Then my ob took me to a room with 3 beds and 2 other pregnant ladies connected to heart rates monitors. I was put to one too, and also she made me stay on my left side, not on my back and push a button every time I felt movement, which was very soon. They put me on IV with vitamins and calcium and a nurse kept an eye on me and was very nice and comforting. We heard his fast heart rate very soon after I was connected to the machine and we both, me and my husband, relaxed and smiled to each other. I stayed with the IV and machine for about an hour, then the doctor that took my ultrasound came in and was not panicked anymore, but said that I have to come to see him Thursday, which seemed like an order more than a request. He looked very upset about the situation and he wanted to make sure everything else was ok because he didn’t had a chance to finish the examination and look anywhere else.

My ob got into surgery and had to wait 45 minutes for her, or more, and than she got to see my tests, agreed with me that I should repeat the ones I was sure they didn’t take them right, after explaining everything to me and making me a schedule for the next months appointments and heart beat monitoring and tests, she said she hoped the baby will stay inside till July 29th, when she wants to schedule my C-section.

So apparently baby moved on my vena cava, and couldn’t move from there because I was on my back and he was very contracted in my belly and it affected him until I changed my position and lay on my left side. I’m not allowed to stay on my back and I have to try and drink more water, but other than that all is fine. I’m just stressed every time baby tightens my belly like he did so many time before, but now the coincidence of him moving like that and his heart rate dropping so low because he sat on the vena cava makes me worry about every time he does that, which is a few times a day.

When we arrived home I struggled to hear his heart beat with a stethoscope, got very worried for 10-15 minutes and after a few tries and my husband assuring me he can hear it with his ear, I succeeded and relaxed a bit.

It was a stressful day, we had our share of scary stuff happening, and we realized how much we love this baby and what I would give for the baby to be safe for ever. We also decided that the middle name should be something more that what it was, we looked for names of saints so that our baby could be protected, this is a tradition in our country, but decided to go with the name that was second on our list and has something to do with God, but doesn’t have a big day of celebration in our Orthodox calendar, which is alright anyway.

I’m now glad we didn’t announce the name to many because now we would have to change it.

We also have a CD but is troubling to watch as you can see his little heart beat so weak and slow and you can also see when the doctor agitated the Doppler on my belly. I don’t think I want to watch that too soon.

Symptoms: Acid reflux, backache, head ache, gas, which I forgot to put it in the months that passed maybe because I got used to it, but it’s there, even if it’s gross and shameful, it’s a part of pregnancy that no one tells you about. I still have a small bladder that my baby likes to kick, but other than that, and the event we had today, nothing else happen.

New measurements:
Baby weight: 1702 grams (ours measured 1965 grams)
Baby head to toe: 42.4 cm

Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight nineteenth week: 72.4 kg

Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust nineteenth week: 98 cm

Waist before: 67 cm
Waist nineteenth week: 94 cm

Hips before: 92 cm
Hips nineteenth week: 97 cm

Butt before: 95 cm
Butt nineteenth week: 105 cm

Bump before: 77 cm
Bump nineteenth week: 104 cm

Jun 2, 2013 - Feelings    No Comments

Thirty One Weeks Pregnant

Thirty One Weeks Pregnant
We put together baby’s bed this week and it was a very emotional moment as I expected, we also put it in it’s place and got an idea of how it will look with all the old furniture around it and it was pretty obvious it was too cramped.

We showed it to my mother in law who looked excited too and afterwards my husband got eye to eye with her and told her he was sad because the place was too cramped and it was no room to move and if only the old furniture wasn’t there, then it could be so much better. And she AGREEED!!! She said IF ONLY we could put the furniture in some other place, but there isn’t any. And THEN my husband suggested a place, they measured it and seems it will fit. Hooray!

Baby's room

One step at a time and we will have our dream room for our little boy. This is how it looks now, but we will got rid of what is unnecessary and it will look much better. But for me, for now, this is so precious and the bed is so sweet with its little covers and blue design I wanna sleep there myself.

I got my tests results and they seemed normal, nothing has changed, only I have my doubts about the way they took a test and I will ask my doctor about it maybe I’ll have to repeat it, but otherwise all is good.

The other great news about this week is that we choose a name. I asked my husband how should we announce it, if I can do it just like that or do something funny and he said to do whatever I want, which is always his response on matters I have doubts on 😛 We’ll see! I’m not sure how I’m gonna do it, at least I will have a post only for this not my weekly update post.

Next week I’ll go to my mom in Bucharest and I can’t wait to stay there till my baby will be born and next Monday I will have a doctors appointment and see my baby boy after such a long time.

Symptoms: Some backache, headache, acid reflux, frequent trips to the bathroom, some constipation, and it’s getting harder to climb the stairs.

New measurements:
Baby weight: 1502 grams (ours measured 950 grams at 25 weeks)
Baby head to toe: 41.1 cm

Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight nineteenth week: 72.1 kg

Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust nineteenth week: 98 cm

Waist before: 67 cm
Waist nineteenth week: 91 cm

Hips before: 92 cm
Hips nineteenth week: 97 cm

Butt before: 95 cm
Butt nineteenth week: 105 cm

Bump before: 77 cm
Bump nineteenth week: 104 cm

May 30, 2013 - Funny    No Comments

How Do Kids React to Pregnancy

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I don’t know how is the best way to give the news to your child, if you have any, but I had encountered two adorable children and they reacted very funny.

My godmother has two kids. The girl is 7 and the boy almost 4. Their names are Ariana and Sebastian. When we first told them I was pregnant and that I have a little baby in my belly, the girl saw her mother touching my belly and she wanted to do it too. The boy saw his sister and followed her. I am pretty sure the mother felt some movement, but I don’t know about the kids because they said they did, but they didn’t hold their hands as long as you should to feel something and I didn’t felt anything in that short period of time.

They though is a perfect spot to play right next to me on the couch and Ariana kicked me with her elbow by accident. It didn’t hurt, but my godmother was upset that she wasn’t being careful with me and made her play somewhere else.

After a month we came to visit again. Actually we met in a mall and we did some shopping together. Both of the kids were happy to see me and the little boy, after greeting me, said in a tiny whisper that he will give birth when he grows up. Sebastian is a sweet boy who likes flowers and Tinkerbell and it was sweet of him to wish to be me, kind of.

Ariana heard him and laughing she said into my ear that boys can’t have babies and Sebastian was funny to say that. Later on I found out that she said to her mother that she is scared of having babies because she doesn’t want to be in pain. Maybe she took my lil’ ones kicking like something painful or maybe she heard us talking about when the baby comes, but we assured her the doctor puts you to sleep and when you wake up you’ll have a baby. She has plenty of time to find out the truth or maybe when her turn comes it will actually be like that.

After that she came very close to me, put her hand on my belly, I pretended I didn’t notice and continued eating my cake, and for a few good seconds she rubbed my belly in such a delicate way that amazed me. My godmother told me that when she was pregnant with her boy, Ariana avoided her and her belly at all cost. It’s weird she saw my pregnancy differently and it was very interesting to see her reactions, and her brother still thinks he will have a baby when he grows, which is cute.

I wonder what they will say when they’ll see me next time.

May 26, 2013 - Feelings    2 Comments

Thirty Weeks Pregnant

Thirty Weeks Pregnant

I’m thirty weeks pregnant and I can’t believe how close I am to hold my little guy in my arms. We received his furniture on Monday and we only build the commode, the thing that I will use as a changing table. It was hard and stressful not having proper expert tools and we had to postpone making the bed because I didn’t want to spoil my husband’s week off that he took to relax.

He was upset that after finishing the furniture he knew where all the imperfection were and he was upset because he wanted to do a better job and frustrated because he though he didn’t make that perfect as he would want it to be for his son. I tried to tell him it was perfect but he didn’t listen, until, few days later, I found out a similar “problem” with the TV furniture in our room, and that was made by professionals with professional tools. I will put some pictures when everything is done.

I bet now he can’t wait to finish the bed too, because I know I can’t wait to see it done. We won’t have a perfect kids room like Americans do, with blue paint and just baby furniture and baby stuff in the room, but my baby will at least have his blue bed in an outdated room, that my mother in law doesn’t let me change.

We dream of having our place and everyone to have his own room and a living room for all of us to chill, because right now we feel we live with the “owner” (mother in law) and we pay rent and we are not allowed to make changes except if the “owner” agrees with it, which she usually doesn’t. Till then I have to be happy for my baby’s blue furniture set, no matter where it is, and I really am happy.

I’m also happy I didn’t have any bad cravings this past week. After the pizza I ate in the weekend I felt happy with the usual food I had. Also, I kept myself away from too much sweets, and that makes me happy too.

Tomorrow I’m gonna go take some blood test and urine tests, and probably the glucose test everyone on WhatToExpect site is talking about. Can’t wait to see the results!

Symptoms: Just some headache and backache, acid reflux and frequent trips to the bathroom.

New measurements:
Baby weight: 1320 grams (ours measured 950 grams at 25 weeks)
Baby head to toe: 40 cm

Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight nineteenth week: 70.9 kg

Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust nineteenth week: 97 cm

Waist before: 67 cm
Waist nineteenth week: 94 cm

Hips before: 92 cm
Hips nineteenth week: 97 cm

Butt before: 95 cm
Butt nineteenth week: 105 cm

Bump before: 77 cm
Bump nineteenth week: 103 cm

May 20, 2013 - Feelings    2 Comments

Twenty Nine Weeks Pregnant

Twenty Nine Weeks Pregnant
I don’t know how to say I feel. I’m powerless about my cravings and eating sweets, even tough my doctor recommended to not over do it with sweets. Sometimes I crave something salty and end up eating something sweet instead. I’m eating Jaffa cake at this very moment and not even the guilt can stop me.

The weight gain is bothering me very much, not because is too much but because is too many grams in too short of a time. Beside eating something sweet every day, ice cream is a must because is getting hot here, I ate just one unhealthy meal this week, a pizza which I was craving for about two weeks. After the pizza I felt so relieved and didn’t think about anything unhealthy since. Even the spinach I ate the last couple of days was mouthwatering.

I don’t know what I’m gonna do about my sweet tooth but I will try to keep it down a little. I even stopped eating Jaffa cakes right now.

I need to get well informed about breastfeeding. I’m concerned I won’t be able to do it more than 1-2 months because any of the girls around me, that had babies recently and are about my age couldn’t do it more than 1-2 months. Of course I was afraid I will miscarriage at the beginning because of the same principles, the girls around me always miscarried the first try, but now is a more common problem and I’m afraid I will be the same as others.

I considered myself lucky with this baby, because both me and my husband have 0 positive blood group and I felt the baby sank with me and we got along so well. No nausea, no other bad symptoms, but breastfeeding isn’t about being on the same page with the baby, is about not being stressed when you do it which I will probably manage for about a month when I will be home with my mom, but after I return to my mother in law, anything can happen. Here the stress level is always unpredictable.

We finally have an idea of what our baby is going to be named. When we started we had just one we chose very early because we got used to it so much, and had no idea of what the middle name would be, but after we finished with the list we ended having two options for middle name. So we made a deal to let them sink in and see which one we get used to. It worked the first time, I think we will be sure about the names by the time the baby comes. We like them both and I simply don’t want to flip a coin, we want to make the right choice and not second guessing ourselfs after we choose.

And yesterday the most beautiful thing happen. My husband and I were listening with the stethoscope for a light tapping I feel sometimes very low in my belly. Is rhythmic and seems too fast for hiccups, not that rhythmic that can mean I feel my pulse, and not as fast as my pulse really is. So we were trying to figure it out when my husband starts smiling a wide smile and said: I’m hearing his heartbeat!

NO WAY! He gave me the stethoscope to hear it too but couldn’t hear anything clear, but didn’t want to burst his bubble and didn’t said anything, he took it again, found it again more strongly and give it to me, again. This time it was as clear as a heartbeat and so beautiful I couldn’t stopped smiling. My husband put his ear on my belly and said it was better without the stethoscope, which I envied a little but couldn’t be more happy about our little guy inside.

We counted around 140 beats per minute and he is getting stronger and more accurate when kicking my bladder. I can’t wait to meet him!

Symptoms: Some backaches, some sharp kicking in my bladder, baby doesn’t care where his foot is going, some acid reflux and some cravings.

New measurements:
Baby weight: 1153 grams (ours measured 950 grams at 25 weeks)
Baby head to toe: 38.6 cm

Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight nineteenth week: 70.6 kg (there goes my cute and pregnant days, not fat and pregnant. I gain like 200 grams per day, and nobody can stop me.)

Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust nineteenth week: 98 cm

Waist before: 67 cm
Waist nineteenth week: 94 cm

Hips before: 92 cm
Hips nineteenth week: 97 cm

Butt before: 95 cm
Butt nineteenth week: 103 cm

Bump before: 77 cm
Bump nineteenth week: 101 cm