Oct 19, 2012 - Feelings    No Comments

I Decided to Become a Mom

I’m 27 years old, I am married for a year and 4 moths, I know my husband for 7 and a half years, and we decided that is time to have a baby. So, I’m not pregnant, yet, but I am getting there. I wanted to be sure that I can do it by myself before we started this. Emotionally preparing myself for this was a bit hard, I had to think like a single mom because the truth is I don’t expect much help from anyone, so I will do all the hard work.

My mom, the single person who I would trust leaving my baby with, is at 350 km away, in my hometown, where she has a job.

My mother-in-law is taking care of her mother who had a stroke and she needs a little support from now and then, and they both live with us in another part of the house, and she is also not in good health, but to be short, I don’t trust her. She is lazy and complaining all the time about not having time to cook, even if she sits all day, nothing else to do but playing Heroes at the computer. She has bad eyes so I just imagine her making the RIGHT formula for my baby in time.

My husband is a sweet, hard-working, man. He is working from home but he is very focused on the time he spends working because is even harder when you are your own boss. I can trust our child in his hands, but I don’t think I could handle his complains about being tired so I would do it myself most of the time leaving the job of making money for our family in his hands. I have a little coffee shop in a small town, so I am my own boss too, but I will gladly leave the business for a while.

I don’t know if I will be a good mom, I didn’t want to answer that question before we decided to do it, because that is not the correct question, the good one is: Am I ready to try to be a mom? So to that the answer is yes, I am ready to try. I am scared and I’m expecting to be hard, tiring, chaotic, overwhelming but I’m sure I will not regret any moment of it and it will also be the most beautiful thing I will accomplish in my life.

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