I’m fourteen weeks pregnant and I miss my baby’s fluttering. I didn’t felt anything for the past week so no other happy excitements. Besides my back ache, which is a constant pain and I can’t do anything about it, I had some arrhythmia that scared me a little.
This morning I felt exhausted and couldn’t stand on my feet to long, which is hard because I work standing up, and I had to go back to my bed cuz my pulse was 105 after 1 minute of standing up, and I felt a tremble all over my body. I said “enough is enough” when my breathing started to race, my heart was pounding, I felt hotter and started to sweat and I just felt I was going to pass out, which I didn’t want to happen on my job, were strangers could only look at me to a window and no one could get in and help.
My blood pressure, when I got to my room and sat down was normal, the pulse was starting to lower and I had some diarrhea and nausea but after I relaxed a bit I was good to go.
I gave another try and went back to my clients, but when they started to come one after another with no pause for me to sit, I stared to feel the tremble in my body again, and the pulse raising and my legs shaking and week. I could say it is from my back ache but I don’t know for sure, and I was just scared that I will pass out and hit my head or harm my baby.
The thing that I didn’t like was some arrhythmia that I felt from time to time, for a few days now, but today was more often and worsen by the passing out feeling. So I tried to get an appointment with a cardiologist and the famous one from my town is available only on 25th February and I made an appointment with him anyway, but searched for something earlier than that. I called a cardiologist from a private clinic and she was available no sooner than 13th February. I don’t know if it matter I am pregnant and if I’m a priority because of that, so I didn’t said anything because I’m shy.
Anyhow, I will wait for the appointments and hopefully they will not find something bad in my heart. I had this arrhythmia for some years, many doctors said they hear nothing wrong in my heart, the EKG test showed nothing, they probably didn’t bother too much because I was too young. Just one doctor, a few years back, said she can hear something but she doesn’t know what it is and maybe with an ultrasound, which was not available that soon, she can say what it is for sure. But now they have to listen to me and do whatever it takes to find out what this feeling is and if it can harm my baby in any way so that I know how to protect my self and my baby.
I feel scared, and tired and week, but my husband helps me a lot, lifting my mood up and taking care of me. I love him so much, and I’m so hormonal that I shared a tear writing that down.
Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight fourteenth week: 59.5 kg
Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust fourteenth week: 92 cm
Waist before: 67 cm
Waist fourteenth week: 78 cm
Hips before: 92 cm
Hips fourteenth week: 92 cm