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Jan 16, 2013 - Feelings, Health    No Comments

Eleven Weeks Pregnant

Eleven Weeks Pregnant

Instead of my nausea I still have this meat aversion which I try to pass by with making food that I crave to contain some meat or to put more sauce so that it won’t be so dry to eat.

I wasn’t able to gain any weight yet, I’m still losing some grams from time to time, but I’m not worried anymore. I still have time to gain and have all sorts of cravings.

I’m still in pain with some back ache, and I tried not to take any pills, not even the ones that are common and OK to take, like No-Spa, and I try going for a walk whenever I get the chance and sleep whenever I can. I also have some tooth ache and for that I’m avoiding sweets and too crunchy foods.

My husband is behaving like a real sweetheart. He made sure my work environment is not at 15 degrees Celsius anymore. He brought a heater and is up to 20 degrees now. He got real concerned when I came near him in bed and tried to get my feet warmer on his skin cuz I could get them to heat up on my on.

He’s not letting me carry anything, he’s amazed by the tiny human in my body (he stopped calling him/her a little worm) and he reads everything I give him on pregnancy, and more.

I went to my family doctor today to put me on the pregnant list and gave me a notebook with info and personal stuff to have whenever I go to a doctors appointment. She also recommended a cardiology appointment because of some unusual sounds she heard when she listened to my heart. I’m not that scared yet, I’m waiting for a real prognosis.

New measurements:
Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight eleventh week: 58.6 kg

Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust eleventh week: 91 cm

Waist before: 67 cm
Waist eleventh week: 76 cm

Hips before: 92 cm
Hips eleventh week: 91 cm

Jan 12, 2013 - Feelings    No Comments

Ten Weeks Pregnant

Ten Weeks Pregnant

I wasn’t able to write my ten weeks update on time, with all the holidays and all the tiredness I am facing. Even if I’m almost eleven weeks now, I thought I don’t have to skip anything.

The nausea from cooking and from an empty stomach is gone. The bad news is I have a meat aversion that I don’t understand. I am a little scared because I can’t take the required proteins in my body, so I will have to ask my doctor what should I do. I keep trying meat, tasting little bits and hopping that I will get an appetite eventually, but can’t take more than a couple of bites till it gets harder to swallow.

I can only think of eating vegetables, fruits, cheese and eggs, this are the only things I can imagine myself eating, and that gets my mouth watering. I heard vegetarians have a harder time in pregnancy, they get weaker and with no strength.

I never was like this before. I often couldn’t understand a meal without meat in it. When I first met my husband and he wanted to eat boiled potatoes with cream and cheese on top I kept asking “with what?” and he kept saying “cream and cheese”. Now potatoes with cream and cheese sound so delicious. But also, my husband, can eat two small steaks with no garnish, which again I can’t understand. I had to have my rice or my potatoes with my meat, but now I can only think of the garnish with bread for a meal.

My husband was so waiting for the cravings that everybody has so that we can both eat anything we want without thinking of getting fat, for him anyway. But now he is the only one who eats sweets and larger portions, not because he wants to, but because he has to eat my portion too (I hate giving expensive meat to the cats).

So I’m not eating for two yet, I’m not gaining weight and that is worrying, but I suppose is still early to get upset, there is plenty of time for the cravings to kick in, and if the meat will not be one of the cravings I can get my fats from somewhere else.

New measurements:
Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight tenth week: 59.2 kg

Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust tenth week: 90 cm

Waist before: 67 cm
Waist tenth week: 75 cm

Hips before: 92 cm
Hips tenth week: 92 cm

Jan 7, 2013 - Feelings    2 Comments

Nine Weeks Pregnant

Nine Weeks Pregnant1

My second visit to the doctor was more relaxing. I didn’t forget my test and documents at home this time. My husband stayed with me even if we had to pay for another train ticket because mine expired. I managed to ask some questions, but not everything from my list.

She explained me what do I have to do to take the bitest, indicators for Down syndrome and other problems that can occur during pregnancy. Which means I have to visit my mom on 25th January, again, for the results. I sure hope there will be some test I can do here, in my town, or else this baby is turning to be very expensive and I am reluctant to think to make him/her a brother or a sister.

I also got to hear its heartbeats again, which sounded nice, and my husband was more happy with this set of pictures cuz the first ultrasound wasn’t that obvious. My baby measures now 2,77 cm. So my holidays ended up well.

Nine Weeks Pregnant2

My doctor asked me if I’m planing to get any fatter cuz she saw how skinny I am, but I told her at the moment the nausea is not letting me crave for anything so I lost one kilo already. She instructed me to keep taking the vitamins and progesterone pills to further notice.

My husband says our baby has my big head cuz its head is the size of its body. And no, that is not the reason I don’t show all my head in my personal picture, I do not really have a big head, I have curly hair and it appears to be large, that’s all.

New measurements:
Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight ninth week: 59.3 kg

Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust ninth week: 90 cm (my husband is expecting more)

Waist before: 67 cm
Waist ninth week: 74 cm

Hips before: 92 cm
Hips ninth week: 92 cm

Dec 23, 2012 - Feelings    No Comments

Eight Weeks Pregnant

Eight weeks pregnant

Since I’ve come back to my moms house I seem to handle my nausea a little better specially because I don’t cook that much so the smell doesn’t gets to me before my meal time and more because my husband had precise hours for the meals and here I eat only when I want to.

My constipation is not that bad anymore, I go more than a few times a week, but I don’t know the reason for the change. I am still bloated and had a some cramps, but the spotting stopped after a few days of taking the pills my doctor prescribed, I don’t know how long I have to take them, but till my next visit I will finish the ones I took.

My belly grew a little, probably because this week my uterus starts to stretch to make room for the baby. I don’t feel any new symptoms so that is that for my eight week.

I’m glad Christmas is coming, the tree is ready, the presents are warped and ready, the traditional food is getting ready in the oven and we are watching Christmas movies on TV. I got a little upset on my mother today. I wanted to help with preparations for the traditional meal, sarma, and she repeatedly said that I don’t have to, that is better that I let her, cuz mine don’t look that good, even if I only got to do two and one of them didn’t look like hers. I raised my voice and told her that it doesn’t matter how they look I only wanted to do something together for this Christmas, she can throw mine afterwards if she doesn’t like, but is important for me to do something together.

I probably overreacted because I miss my husband, I’m sad that the is not with us (me and the bump) and he will arrive no sooner than 27th December, so probably the hormones got to me, but I stopped myself from crying and we finished the sarmas together.

New measurements:
Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight eight week: 59.7 kg

Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust eighth week: 90 cm

Waist before: 67 cm
Waist eighth week: 74 cm

Hips before: 92 cm
Hips eighth week: 92 cm

Dec 18, 2012 - Feelings, Health, Problems    No Comments

First Ultrasound

First Ultrasound

I came to Bucharest on Saturday, alone because I had the appointment yesterday and we decided I would remain here for the holidays and my husband will join me later. He couldn’t come with me because he can’t spent so much time away from his family because they need him.

I was not afraid of the doctors appointment, I was excited even, I was just afraid of the taxi ride, I didn’t know the area where the hospital is situated and didn’t know how much money it will take me for the ride. But I made it there in time, just 5 minutes earlier, and took a chair in the waiting room. I waited like a half an hour and realized I had forgotten my entire medical file at home. I was ready to go to the hospital an hour before my actual departing time, but emotions and stress made me forget my most valuable file at home.

So I waited there, trying to remember what tests I did and what I didn’t do, try to remember all the questions I wanted to ask her and I finally enter the cabinet. She greeted me with a smile, she asked about my age, about my last period to know how many weeks I have and, of course, about the test file, which I didn’t have. I tried to give her some tests I remembered but she writes me a blood test reference and she advise me to only take those that I didn’t took, of course.

She puts me on the examining table, takes a few samples for some tests I was sure I didn’t take, and gives me an internal ultrasound. She looks on the monitor, moves the stick inside me around a few times, and she turns on the sound a couple of times, the second time I heard it loud and clear “Bump….Bump….Bump….”, it sounds like 70 beats per minute and I panic. It should’ve sound like “BumpBumpBump”, 110 to 160 beats per minute to be a healthy baby, so my eyes start watering.

The doctor is not happy, I see she doesn’t like what she heard but she stays calm. She says she wants a pregnancy confirmation and a transvaginal ultrasound to be sure we can continue the pregnancy, cuz there is a risk that the heart will stop and she wants to make sure as soon as possible. She also gave me some pills prescription, vitamins, Folic Acid, something for spotting, because it didn’t stop from last Sunday, and No-spa, just in case I have any kind of pain I can take 1 to 4 capsules per day.

She gave me her business card which I lost cuz I couldn’t focus on anything else, I took the ultrasound picture with the little bump barely visible and left. It was good I had the agenda with me, I wrote everything she told me, when to come see her again, where, what to do next, when will I know everything is ok, and stuff. I went to the reception and try to get an appointment as soon as possible for that ultrasound and lucky me they had one opening at one o’clock and it was one o’clock.

I stayed in line though, cuz there were some other women there more pregnant than me. I gave my husband a call and told him everything, I wrote him a few messages cuz I didn’t like other people to hear that I was scared and sad and lost and all alone. I shared a few tears which drew attention, but I tried staying strong and said to myself if I’m positive my baby will be fine.

My husband made a quick researched on the internet, told me some women treated the slow pulse with pills, like magnesium and calcium and the pulse went up a little. But that meant that the baby could have some heart problems, treatable, but nevertheless. I was angry that I’ve done everything that I could to make my body healthy for the conceiving, then made sure I ate healthy and enough, and eat fruits and take vitamins, and this still could happen.

When the doctor called me in, my tears were gone and I was relieved that I didn’t had to wait that long to know. He quickly asked my name and get down to business. He put the ultrasound on my belly and in a couple of seconds I could hear loud and clear “BumpBumpBump”, 128 beats per minute. I was so happy and then more happy when he told me to look on my left and there, on a TV with a 65 cm diameter, I could se the little peanut. The doctor measured his head, body, everything and congratulated me.

I thanked God everything was fine and when I went to pay for everything I didn’t care how much it was, I was just glad it was over.

Today I’ve done the blood tests I was supposed to, and the result will come on January 7, 3 days later than my next doctors visit. Hope it will not be too late and that there will not be more surprises.

Dec 16, 2012 - Feelings, Health    No Comments

Seven Weeks Pregnant

Seven Weeks Pregnant

I have the same problems like last week. I can’t get rid of the nausea. I know I can eat, even if I don’t feel like it, even if I feel I can’t hold the food in I know I will not throw up afterwards. The problem is that I don’t know what to eat, I can’t think of any food that will not make me sick thinking of it. The meet sounds to heavy for my belly, and I don’t like thinking of the smell, the chicken is the one meet that doesn’t smell bad but it doesn’t smell good either. The fish would be the worst thing and the last I can think of cooking, even if I know some will be very good for my pregnancy. One day I will have to go past my aversion and eat some to see what happens.

Tomorrow is my first doctors appointment. I have a list of things to ask her.

About chickenpox I have to ask, even if I had it when I was little, my sister in law could get it from one of her friends and I don’t know what happens to the baby inside me.

About iodine I have to ask because of my mother-in-law, she keeps nagging me that she took iodine when she was pregnant and why am I not taking any. I tried to explain to her that now the salt has iodine and it is not like 28 years ago where you could not find that in salt and that is why you had to took supplements.

I also have to ask her about other vitamins I have to take. I want to know if drinking a large cup of chamomile tea could harm anything and what can I take, pills or other remedies, for nausea and constipation.

I have to tell her that I need a C section because of my eye problems, and I have the recipe for my glasses to show her I know what I’m talking about and I have to ask her when will the C section be scheduled and what to expect.

I’m a little scared cuz I will be all alone but is something that I look forward to cuz it will be the first time I’ll see, maybe even hear, my baby. As my husband said, I will not be alone, my little bump will be with me. Wish us luck, we both will need it!

New measurements:
Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight seventh week: 59.1 kg

Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust seventh week: 90 cm

Waist before: 67 cm
Waist seventh week: 72 cm

Hips before: 92 cm
Hips seventh week: 92 cm

Dec 9, 2012 - Feelings    No Comments

Six Weeks Pregnant

This is getting harder and harder. Today was my first spotting day, hopping it will be the last. The constipation is awful, I used the bathroom Thursday and today and I was so happy about it. I am begging to enjoy the little things, like bathroom trips, more and more. Thursday caught me by surprise, lucky me I was at a private clinic with my husband and they had bathrooms, even more luck when I discovered they had no toilet paper and I found a napkin barely used in my pocket. I was so sad that I had thrown another one just minutes before I left the house, I promised myself never leave the house without napkins ever again.

The breasts still hurt, but not that much anymore because I bought a sport bra that supports them very well. At first it was uncomfortable because it itched, it has some seams right on my nipples and when I moved it rubbed on my skin. Actually is the bra from the photo above. I found a solution to my problem and now I’m wearing the bra on a cotton t-shirt with no seams on my boobs. My husband is calling me the girl version of Superman, cuz he wore his underwear on top of his pants and I’m wearing my bra on top of the t-shirt. I don’t mind a little mocking as long as my boobs have the support they need and it doesn’t itch anymore.

I’m also a little moody from time to time, but if I think about it I can pull myself together and don’t overreact. But who wouldn’t be in a mood if you’re bloated all the time, constipated and nauseated. I figured out that I feel more nausea before a meal but not in the middle of a meal or afterwards. So is true that is better to eat more often and smaller portions, but I avoid doing that cuz I’m afraid I will get too fat to quick.

Even if I don’t visit the bathroom that often I can’t figure out why I am still under 61 kilos. I am not complaining I just don’t know were the food is going.

Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight fifth week: 58.0 kg (because of my diarrhea)
Weight sixth week: 60.2 kg (because of my constipation)

Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust fifth week: 90 cm
Bust sixth week: 90 cm

Waist before: 67 cm
Waist fifth week: 71 cm (because of the bloating I suppose)
Waist sixth week: 72 cm

Hips before: 92 cm
Hips fifth week: 92 cm
Hips sixth week: 92 cm

Now I call my belly “little bump” even if it is because I’m bloated is still good to know someone is inside me.

Dec 2, 2012 - Feelings, Health, Problems    No Comments

Five Weeks Pregnant

At 5 weeks pregnant is not much to see but I will begin to take a picture of my belly every week so that I will see the rate at witch my belly grows. I will also have this weekly post with all my symptoms and everything I’m going trough.

Symptoms: I already started to feel nausea, and had some bloating issues accompanied by constipation, but as I was trying to resolve constipation, diarrhea hit me, like a truck hits a fly on the highway. I had severe stomach ache and had to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night, several times, two nights in a row. I had some mint tea and bananas, but I’m not in the mood of eating this days because of my nausea. It was a pain to cook but luckily my husband helped and did a great job too. Unfortunately I can’t eat what I had in mind, I have to stick to the tea and toast.

My breast are tender and they grew from 87 cm circumference to 91 cm, my husband can’t stop smiling at them, but he’s sad he can’t play cuz they hurt. Sometimes is a moderate pain, sometimes sever, I always have to get a hold of them when I go down the stairs. Another of the symptoms is headache but that doesn’t bother me that much.

I tried sleeping on my left side the last few night, first try was a mess, my arms kept going numb and tingly and had to turn around because of the pain, and my right arm hurt all day that day, but the next day, don’t ask me why I was fine and didn’t had any trouble with the numbness all night. I think it was because I kept my arms straight not under me or my pillow and the pressure was not like the first time.

Weight before: 59.3 kg
Weight at now: 58.0 kg (because of my diarrhea)
Bust measurements before: 87 cm
Bust measurements now: 90 cm
Waist before: 67 cm
Waist now: 71 cm (because of the bloating I suppose)
Hips before: 92 cm
Hips now: 92 cm

Nov 29, 2012 - Feelings    No Comments

Telling Your Family You’re Pregnant

Telling your family you’re pregnant should be fun. The day we found out I’m pregnant we figured that we have to tell my mother-in-law that we will, from now on, be careful about the cats and we will bring our own tablecloth when we eat with them so that we avoid the ones that she keeps in the bathroom next to the place the cats eat. But before telling her that, I wanted to tell my mom first.

So I gave her a call in the morning, asked her what was she doing, she went on about some plans she had for that day, and finally I saw a brake and took it. I asked her if she had some beads the size of a pea cuz I wanted her to send me some. She works in the confection area so it was a normal request. She said she thought she had but didn’t know for sure. I asked her to check and she got angry she said her food is getting cold and that she will check later. I said she will be sorry for raising her voice, and she immediately apologize even she didn’t know what I was talking about. Then I said, I needed a bead because that’s the size of her grandson in this very moment.

– What? What do you mean? she said.
– I said your grandson is the size of a pea.
– Wow, are you serious? That is so wonderful, I’m so happy, I don’t know what to say, congratulations! But why do you need me to send you my beads?

After a minute I stopped laughing and told her it was just a pretext to show her the real size. She wished us all there is to wish and I made her very happy, told her about this blog witch she can not read because doesn’t know English, and I remembered her food was getting cold and we said goodbyes.

Telling my mother-in-law was more pleasant than I expected. My husband started with some good news about his business and then he asked her if she wants more good news or should we wait for tomorrow so that both days will have something good. We told her anyway and she congratulated us, but apologized that she can’t kiss me cuz she tasted the food she was making and said it will be sticky. I didn’t expect a kiss from her anyway she is a little reticent when it comes to touching other people, or hugging, or kissing. But it went well and I felt good about telling her, she even asked us some questions about doctors and stuff and she reacted very well at the news that we will avoid using her tablecloth.

I’m planing to tell my brother about this on his name day. Saint Andrei is tomorrow and we always tell him Happy Nameday even if his name is Adrian. Instead of wishing him Happy Nameday I will say congratulation for being an uncle.

And that is it, I don’t want to tell my friends or anyone else yet, I want to wait till I’m 12 weeks pregnant at least. We want to be sure everything is ok.

Nov 25, 2012 - Feelings    No Comments

I’m Pregnant

Congratulations to me! I’m pregnant. Today was supposed to be my first day of the menstruation but because I usually have some spotting right the day before and I had a feeling I was pregnant, I took the test today.

Then I dressed up, put a ribbon on my belly, took a bottle of champagne for kids, no alcohol just juice with lots of bubbles and showed him the test. He was so excited, he kissed me and he hugged me tight. He had happiness leaking from the tips of the ears, that’s how happy he was and I am too. I had no problem conceiving, I followed the rules, took the vitamins, done everything right and it happen.

I was a little worried about the home pregnancy test (or HPT) because the second line was not that clear. But I searched the internet and found out that is normal because the HCG is at a lower level at the moment, but it is present and you can consider yourself pregnant. If you see any traces of a line in the period specified on the test you are pregnant, if you see them after that period, usually after 10 minutes, and before that was nothing there, I’m sorry to tell you, you are not.

It’s no need for you to go take more tests, you can make the doctor appointment, he will tell you from that test alone that you are pregnant. It is best to wait two more weeks after the day your period was supposed to come, because you will be in your 6th week and that means you will hear the baby’s heart.

I can now schedule my appointments and continue to enjoy my last days without nausea and watch my eating and take my vitamins. I’m 4 weeks pregnant and I’m happy.
P.S: And that is really me and my test in the pictures.